Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often start with severe pain behind one eye that persists up to three hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.
Still, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical medical records propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.
Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidance need revising to reflect a